What a loser!

OK some of you maybe thinking, "Woohoo congrats Shan!", well hold the applause. I'm not a weight loss loser. I'm the L to the forehead kind of loser. I've gained weight and a considerable amount too. :-( Needless to say I'm more frustrated than before. Angry at myself. Why I'm not sure. Is it because I feel like this is something I can't control. Not sure. I am starting to feel at this point that only GOD can help this sorry loser.

Now before I describe what has been going on with me, NO I am NOT pregnant. I have taken two tests both negative, which is what I think makes this whole thing worse. Here are some of the things I have been experiencing.

• I'm three weeks late
• I'm starving all the time
• I'm craving carbs
• I'm exhausted
• Having terrible cramps
• Bloating beyond belief!

So yeah add frustration in there and I am just a barrel of laughs right now. I went from my starting weight of 218 to 212.2 which was great! I am doing the same things that I did then, now. Nothing has changed and yet as of this morning I weigh 219.8! I seriously wanted to take the scale and chuck it out the window! I mean come on, ugha. 

At this point I am considering starting a Wii Fit Club. So at the very least if I don't loose weight at least my friends can. Oi Vey!