Hello Readers!
I am combining my blog and will no longer be posting on this one. You can still continue following me on my journey by viewing my new blog located here:
http://mommaof4hobbits.wordpress.com/
I'm so glad that you have been following me despite not posting regularly. I do hope that you continue to follow me at my new location.
Be Blessed!!!
Thursday, March 21, 2013
Sunday, November 4, 2012
Buuut I Loooooove Cooow Juuuuice! :'(
Yup this is me whining... So with all the lovely allergens I can't have milk and cheese... I think I'm going to die. I LOVE MILK!!! Evidently it does not love me back. I stuck to my new ridged diet for like 2 days and caved... I thought, Oh I could just have a little. But a little was all the temptation I needed and I was right back in my old ways... AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! The milk made my tummy inflate so much I surely thought I would float away. Whhhyyy? was I could say. The only cereal I can stand so far with soy milk is the Special K red berries. I'm gonna starve. I like it but not enough to eat it all the time. I love oatmeal and bagels but they have wheat in it, which I also can't have. Oh not to mention the yeast in the bagels. Can't have eggs and I've been eating hard boiled ones like they are going eggstinct... haha see what I did there?
So dear friends of mine back to the hardcore diet of veggies, fish and some chicken. Funny I can eat the chicken but not it's pre-chicken form... what the heck? *sigh* I must remind myself every morning "For I can do everything through Christ, who gives me strength." Philippians 4:13 I can do this... well I HAVE to do this I want to meet my maker some day... but not because I decided to have a glass of milk 6 times a day to make me ascend to the heavens.
xoxox
So dear friends of mine back to the hardcore diet of veggies, fish and some chicken. Funny I can eat the chicken but not it's pre-chicken form... what the heck? *sigh* I must remind myself every morning "For I can do everything through Christ, who gives me strength." Philippians 4:13 I can do this... well I HAVE to do this I want to meet my maker some day... but not because I decided to have a glass of milk 6 times a day to make me ascend to the heavens.
xoxox
Wednesday, October 24, 2012
Does the immune system have effects on weight?
Now that I've had my fourth and final baby, yes final, I've had my tubes tied, I am digging deeper to find a permanent solution to my weight loss. I've had some funny symptoms over the last decade that have surrounded my weight gain and enough is enough. I went to my doctor, Dr. P and gave her my book of symptoms for her to look over. She sent me to the ENT for a sleep study. So now I'm a patient of Dr. K. He sends me for a sleep study, skin allergy testing and a CT scan of my sinuses. After my skin testing the LPN shares with me my results. So here is a list of my allergens:
Grasses
Bermuda grass
blue grass
Weeds
lamb's quater
Trees
oak trees
cottonwood trees
Dusts
house dust
dermato farinae
Molds
penicillium
candida
alternaria
helminthosporium
fusarium
TCE
As allergens attack the immune system I decided to do some research on how the immune system and body weight are connected if at all. You have to know if I discover something about my body I must research the affects on my weight. While researching I found this article that I believe sums up all the information very well.
Malfunctioning Immunity Causes Weight Gain
Here are a few key points of the article in case you do not what to read the whole thing.
"Leptin is the key hormone in your body that enables your survival, as it is the hormone that permits your body to spend energy. Since energy is needed for everything your body does, its fundamental importance cannot be overstated.
For example, leptin signaling to your subconscious brain following a meal gives you a full signal and sends the subconscious message that you have been to the gas station. You now have plenty of fuel in your tank, and it is time to kick your energetic systems into gear. That is an example of a central regulatory system in your body that sets your overall energy spending policy."
"Metabolic flu is the inappropriate and chronic activation of your immune system6 cells, malfunctioning in a way that promotes weight gain and makes weight loss difficult. I will explain this first in the context of leptin resistance and then explain step-by-step how someone goes from being normal weight to being overweight, and finally what you need to do to solve the problem.
Leptin resistance means that your white adipose tissue is making too much leptin and for a variety of reasons the leptin signal is not easily getting into your brain or registering in it. This is what I call a false state of perceived starvation. Your body thinks it is starving and so must keep eating, even though you are far from starving. In other words, the problem of leptin resistance means you don’t have enough leptin in your brain in relation to eating a normal amount of food. On the other hand, you have too much leptin in your blood stream. Therein lies the problem."
"Once this combination of problems starts, the metabolic flu begins to ramp up and lock itself into place. The inflammation within white adipose tissue activates monocytes that go out into your circulation and recruit more macrophages to come to your white adipose tissue. Interestingly, this appears to be a self-defense mechanism against being poisoned by too much food. The macrophages are actually trying to liberate the fat from the fat cells using a highly inflammatory backup strategy. Unfortunately, their last ditch effort is overwhelmed by even more calories coming in that must be stored as fat. We now have excessive inflammatory macrophage activity locked into place, worsening in direct proportion to the expansion of your waistline. The inflammation in your white adipose tissue enters your general circulation and induces wear and tear, causing you to feel tired. One of your genetic responses to tiredness is eating to get energy – and around we go in a vicious circle of progressively worsening health, i.e., metabolic flu."
"Immune cells work best when they go from a resting to an active state when needed. Metabolic flu chronically activates immune cells; they get tired and resistant to leptin signaling. It is like a repetitive strain injury to immune cells. Immunity in general starts to malfunction."
"The bottom line is that developing the metabolic flu is what causes you to gain weight in the first place and is clearly locked into place in people who struggle to lose weight. Furthermore, the longer the problem exists and worsens, the more likely it is that other more serious metabolic problems and immune system problems will develop."
So now as a part of my weight loss regiment I am going to get my allergies under control by eliminating as many allergens and taking an OTC to help with symptoms. I will start again with a very well balanced diet by strictly following a veggie based food pyramid while removing foods that contain my allergens. I will also take great care in preparing foods to ensure the best to my ability that certain allergens are not on my foods, like washing root veggies very well.
xoxox,
Shan
Grasses
Bermuda grass
blue grass
Weeds
lamb's quater
Trees
oak trees
cottonwood trees
Dusts
house dust
dermato farinae
Molds
penicillium
candida
alternaria
helminthosporium
fusarium
TCE
As allergens attack the immune system I decided to do some research on how the immune system and body weight are connected if at all. You have to know if I discover something about my body I must research the affects on my weight. While researching I found this article that I believe sums up all the information very well.
Malfunctioning Immunity Causes Weight Gain
Here are a few key points of the article in case you do not what to read the whole thing.
"Leptin is the key hormone in your body that enables your survival, as it is the hormone that permits your body to spend energy. Since energy is needed for everything your body does, its fundamental importance cannot be overstated.
For example, leptin signaling to your subconscious brain following a meal gives you a full signal and sends the subconscious message that you have been to the gas station. You now have plenty of fuel in your tank, and it is time to kick your energetic systems into gear. That is an example of a central regulatory system in your body that sets your overall energy spending policy."
"Metabolic flu is the inappropriate and chronic activation of your immune system6 cells, malfunctioning in a way that promotes weight gain and makes weight loss difficult. I will explain this first in the context of leptin resistance and then explain step-by-step how someone goes from being normal weight to being overweight, and finally what you need to do to solve the problem.
Leptin resistance means that your white adipose tissue is making too much leptin and for a variety of reasons the leptin signal is not easily getting into your brain or registering in it. This is what I call a false state of perceived starvation. Your body thinks it is starving and so must keep eating, even though you are far from starving. In other words, the problem of leptin resistance means you don’t have enough leptin in your brain in relation to eating a normal amount of food. On the other hand, you have too much leptin in your blood stream. Therein lies the problem."
"Once this combination of problems starts, the metabolic flu begins to ramp up and lock itself into place. The inflammation within white adipose tissue activates monocytes that go out into your circulation and recruit more macrophages to come to your white adipose tissue. Interestingly, this appears to be a self-defense mechanism against being poisoned by too much food. The macrophages are actually trying to liberate the fat from the fat cells using a highly inflammatory backup strategy. Unfortunately, their last ditch effort is overwhelmed by even more calories coming in that must be stored as fat. We now have excessive inflammatory macrophage activity locked into place, worsening in direct proportion to the expansion of your waistline. The inflammation in your white adipose tissue enters your general circulation and induces wear and tear, causing you to feel tired. One of your genetic responses to tiredness is eating to get energy – and around we go in a vicious circle of progressively worsening health, i.e., metabolic flu."
"Immune cells work best when they go from a resting to an active state when needed. Metabolic flu chronically activates immune cells; they get tired and resistant to leptin signaling. It is like a repetitive strain injury to immune cells. Immunity in general starts to malfunction."
"The bottom line is that developing the metabolic flu is what causes you to gain weight in the first place and is clearly locked into place in people who struggle to lose weight. Furthermore, the longer the problem exists and worsens, the more likely it is that other more serious metabolic problems and immune system problems will develop."
So now as a part of my weight loss regiment I am going to get my allergies under control by eliminating as many allergens and taking an OTC to help with symptoms. I will start again with a very well balanced diet by strictly following a veggie based food pyramid while removing foods that contain my allergens. I will also take great care in preparing foods to ensure the best to my ability that certain allergens are not on my foods, like washing root veggies very well.
xoxox,
Shan
Monday, July 23, 2012
I'm joining the PARTY!
First and foremost I would like to thank my readers who have waited for my return. I'm back! We had our beautiful little surprise Carolyn Rose on June 18th. She has been such a joy, our little surprise. We also bought our first home and moved since the last blog. Which brings me back to finally loosing the weight for good. Wooohooo. I have had my tubes tied so I know that now weight loss after the baby should stick as long as I stick with proper diet and exercise.
I am breast feeding so that should help with burning some of the calories. But I'm also eating like crazy. So here is hoping I can eat the healthy stuff and cave in and eat or buy the junk. I am having a really hard time kicking the Oreo habit though... I guess I felt pretty guilty about that and am bummed that I now live about hour away from my Freakin' Awesome ZUMBA! instructors because I bought the videos.
I logged on to QVC and found this kickin' ZUMBA! deal. It's going to be here tomorrow and I absolutely can not wait. When I was going to ZUMBA! class last year around this time I lost a size and it was enough weight loss to get pregnant again, and that was just in two months. I can't wait to shake my booty. But the best thing about using ZUMBA! as a weight loss tool this time is that my best friend and husband will be doing it with me. Having his support through participation means the world to me.
So I am joining the ZUMBA! Party again with very high hopes and expectations. It's that time to get the kids off to bed so off I go for another night. Live well friends!
xoxox,
Shan
Friday, December 30, 2011
Dinner is served!
And on tonights menu, crow. Ok so for this to make any sense you need to read the blog previously posted. Go ahead I'll wait... ... ....
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Crazy right?!?!? Well the plot thickens... and so does my hair. I need to clear a few things up about my last post.
1. When it felt like my abdomen/cysts exploding, that was actually my ovaries, are you ready for it, ovulating on their own.
2. Yes I was loosing my hair, literally and yes, it was due to hormones. But not at all for the reasons I thought.
3. I am still steadily gaining weight, which in it's self is rather annoying considering all my hard work, but I can certainly deal with it.
4. I am eating crow, because not only am I evidently now a "fertile myrtle" but we are also pregnant again.
I would just like to say, we absolutely in no way shape or form planned this. It happened, in a heat of the moment kind of situation. So I am eating crow big time and feeling a tad bit sheepish about it. ^_^ Just thought that a proper update would have been appropriate.
Needless to say my weight loss has been put on hold once more. But you can follow my other blog at Life with Mumsie until I can pick this one back up again, then you should have two to entertain you.
Peace!
.... ....
Crazy right?!?!? Well the plot thickens... and so does my hair. I need to clear a few things up about my last post.
1. When it felt like my abdomen/cysts exploding, that was actually my ovaries, are you ready for it, ovulating on their own.
2. Yes I was loosing my hair, literally and yes, it was due to hormones. But not at all for the reasons I thought.
3. I am still steadily gaining weight, which in it's self is rather annoying considering all my hard work, but I can certainly deal with it.
4. I am eating crow, because not only am I evidently now a "fertile myrtle" but we are also pregnant again.
I would just like to say, we absolutely in no way shape or form planned this. It happened, in a heat of the moment kind of situation. So I am eating crow big time and feeling a tad bit sheepish about it. ^_^ Just thought that a proper update would have been appropriate.
Needless to say my weight loss has been put on hold once more. But you can follow my other blog at Life with Mumsie until I can pick this one back up again, then you should have two to entertain you.
Peace!
Tuesday, September 27, 2011
Q: Did you hear the one about the butcher?
A: She's fat and balding. :-(
This PCOS crap is really make me mad! I'm gaining weight rapidly... again... and now my hair is falling out in clumps. I'm so sick of being plagued with this. I have so many things I need to worry about like, playing with my kids and being a confident woman for them to look up to. Instead, I'm doing exercise classes, going to the gym, starving myself and now spending extra time, whenever I can, in front of a mirror. Not because I'm being self righteous and fixing my makeup... but because I'm looking for bald spots on my head. :'-(
Tonight, I feel alone. Like no one can possible understand what I'm going through. I have an appointment with the endocrinologist on October 18th, but I feel like I'll be completely bald by then. Not to mention I feel like my abdomen is going to explode sometimes, most recently with the pain from the cysts. I've been having so many insanely weird things going on with my body and my OBGYN is treating me like I'm a hypochondriac... telling me to take tylenol and that it isn't anything to worry about...
REALLY??!?!?!? ARE YOU KIDDING ME? I know my body, and this stuff is really weird and not normal for me. I'm in severe pain most days and you're just gonna sit there collecting your $200k a year and tell me not to worry this is normal.... Suddenly now that my husband and I have decided that we will not be having more children, I'm not as important as the Fertile Myrtle in her 20's huh?
I'm alone and scared. The only people who can help me, I have to wait until the 18th to see or don't want to schedule to see me at all. If there is anyone out there reading this blog, I feel like I'm falling apart physical right now and there is no help or hope. This is the worst part of this weight loss journey for me. Working my tail off and not getting any results or hope of getting any results because of the little trickster living in my body known as PCOS.
I just want to be me again.
xoxox,
Shan
This PCOS crap is really make me mad! I'm gaining weight rapidly... again... and now my hair is falling out in clumps. I'm so sick of being plagued with this. I have so many things I need to worry about like, playing with my kids and being a confident woman for them to look up to. Instead, I'm doing exercise classes, going to the gym, starving myself and now spending extra time, whenever I can, in front of a mirror. Not because I'm being self righteous and fixing my makeup... but because I'm looking for bald spots on my head. :'-(
Tonight, I feel alone. Like no one can possible understand what I'm going through. I have an appointment with the endocrinologist on October 18th, but I feel like I'll be completely bald by then. Not to mention I feel like my abdomen is going to explode sometimes, most recently with the pain from the cysts. I've been having so many insanely weird things going on with my body and my OBGYN is treating me like I'm a hypochondriac... telling me to take tylenol and that it isn't anything to worry about...
REALLY??!?!?!? ARE YOU KIDDING ME? I know my body, and this stuff is really weird and not normal for me. I'm in severe pain most days and you're just gonna sit there collecting your $200k a year and tell me not to worry this is normal.... Suddenly now that my husband and I have decided that we will not be having more children, I'm not as important as the Fertile Myrtle in her 20's huh?
I'm alone and scared. The only people who can help me, I have to wait until the 18th to see or don't want to schedule to see me at all. If there is anyone out there reading this blog, I feel like I'm falling apart physical right now and there is no help or hope. This is the worst part of this weight loss journey for me. Working my tail off and not getting any results or hope of getting any results because of the little trickster living in my body known as PCOS.
I just want to be me again.
xoxox,
Shan
Thursday, September 8, 2011
From a potato sack to... jeans... and damn they look good!!!
So much has happened on this crazy journey in the short time since my last post.
ONE-
Aunt Flo FINALLY came to visit me on her own without having to be drugged... I had a super "YAY!!" moment and then an "ahhh crap, are you freakin' kidding me?" moment as I came upon this realization at work, with nothing at my disposal to be hospitable to the old crone.
a.) The "YAY!" Moment
So this was great because I am starting to loose enough weight and my
hormones are starting to level back out to do these things on their own.
Which means good things for the PCOS. Maybe this means my body is finally
starting to take back control!
TWO-
When Aunt Flo came whirling in she did it with force and destruction that Irene did all up and down the east coast. It didn't matter what I used to be hospitable to this twit of an Aunt... She wanted to make her mark... all over my nice clean jeans... Let me remind you that she showed up on the first day of three day work stint at work. This means I wasn't getting to laundry right away... so I HAD to buy more pants... But this is where this weight loss story gets good.
I brought in the typical size 16 and 18 jeans to try on. Most of the time in places like Target and Walmart I have to opt for the 18 because of how tight they are... I have never been a super fan of really tight jeans, on me or anyone else. That is something the 80's and 90's can gladly keep... Well I had been working my buns off at the gym and at ZUMBA so I thought I would try the 16's on first... I was soooo excited! I was able to pull the 16's up so fast I almost gave myself a wedgie!
I could have probably gotten the 14's and they would have been just as tight as they are typical suppose to be... stupid clothing industry, but I got the 16's instead. Let me say, in that moment I was so insanely proud of myself that I wanted to go to the gym again that night... but Auntie was being really dominating... so I had to put it on hold.
Even though my weight seems to be fluctuating a bit, clothing never lies to you the way a scale does. I'm pretty stoked about this new discovery and I hope that it keeps me motivated on this insanely difficult weight loss journey.
As for me right now, right this minute... off to sort through some stuff since we'll be moving within the next month and then to ZUMBA class tonight!
xoxox,
Shan
ONE-
Aunt Flo FINALLY came to visit me on her own without having to be drugged... I had a super "YAY!!" moment and then an "ahhh crap, are you freakin' kidding me?" moment as I came upon this realization at work, with nothing at my disposal to be hospitable to the old crone.
a.) The "YAY!" Moment
So this was great because I am starting to loose enough weight and my
hormones are starting to level back out to do these things on their own.
Which means good things for the PCOS. Maybe this means my body is finally
starting to take back control!
TWO-
When Aunt Flo came whirling in she did it with force and destruction that Irene did all up and down the east coast. It didn't matter what I used to be hospitable to this twit of an Aunt... She wanted to make her mark... all over my nice clean jeans... Let me remind you that she showed up on the first day of three day work stint at work. This means I wasn't getting to laundry right away... so I HAD to buy more pants... But this is where this weight loss story gets good.
I brought in the typical size 16 and 18 jeans to try on. Most of the time in places like Target and Walmart I have to opt for the 18 because of how tight they are... I have never been a super fan of really tight jeans, on me or anyone else. That is something the 80's and 90's can gladly keep... Well I had been working my buns off at the gym and at ZUMBA so I thought I would try the 16's on first... I was soooo excited! I was able to pull the 16's up so fast I almost gave myself a wedgie!
I could have probably gotten the 14's and they would have been just as tight as they are typical suppose to be... stupid clothing industry, but I got the 16's instead. Let me say, in that moment I was so insanely proud of myself that I wanted to go to the gym again that night... but Auntie was being really dominating... so I had to put it on hold.
Even though my weight seems to be fluctuating a bit, clothing never lies to you the way a scale does. I'm pretty stoked about this new discovery and I hope that it keeps me motivated on this insanely difficult weight loss journey.
As for me right now, right this minute... off to sort through some stuff since we'll be moving within the next month and then to ZUMBA class tonight!
xoxox,
Shan
Friday, August 26, 2011
Woah! Did you see that? That was one fat hummingbird!!
I have felt like a hummingbird lately. Flitting from here to there. From there to ... where? EVERYWHERE! Like I mentioned in my last post, I'm working in the home outta the home and going to ZUMBA! and The gym.
Lately I haven't felt like I was getting anywhere... again... so I decided I needed to kick it up a notch! I've decided to get anywhere I need to go full speed even though I'm already doing so much. Every night afterwork I'm gonna go to the gym and give it my all. The kids will already be in bed so they won't miss me much more than they all ready do.
David may or may not suffer a bit though... I think he'll be ok. Time to himself, he won't have to leave house (his favorite) and in a few months I'll be skinny... I hope...
Tonight I went to ZUMBA! Which again I must say I totally adore. If anyone wants any info about it, let me know. While there I dripping in sweat! Yay, doesn't sweat mean you were actually working hard? But seriously, Leave a cold Pepsi bottle out in the sun... And thats me! Dripping on the outside and full of sugar on the inside!
It was about that time I thought, "you know, I'm kind of getting addicted to sweating and the energy burst I get from doing this thing called exercising." So I packed up and went straight to the gym. Lifted some weights, realized I am super weak and need to do that way more often. I used a cardio machine and made more body condensation, took a stationary bike ride to Facebook land, Sat up and laid down on a big bouncy ball 60 times stretched out from the night and called it quits!
Got home got some old clothes out. Size 16 jeans perfect fit. A tank and short night set... fits me waaay better than it did when I bought it! So that was a pretty rocking. It was also a nice confidence boost!
Here it is now 1 am and I'm still wide awake. That's what happens when I go to the gym at night... but I suppose that is one small price to pay for the body of a goddess. It's a good thing the price is so low... my credit sucks!
Well sweet dreams, and don't eat the cotton candy... they're sheep.
xoxox,
Shan
Lately I haven't felt like I was getting anywhere... again... so I decided I needed to kick it up a notch! I've decided to get anywhere I need to go full speed even though I'm already doing so much. Every night afterwork I'm gonna go to the gym and give it my all. The kids will already be in bed so they won't miss me much more than they all ready do.
David may or may not suffer a bit though... I think he'll be ok. Time to himself, he won't have to leave house (his favorite) and in a few months I'll be skinny... I hope...
Tonight I went to ZUMBA! Which again I must say I totally adore. If anyone wants any info about it, let me know. While there I dripping in sweat! Yay, doesn't sweat mean you were actually working hard? But seriously, Leave a cold Pepsi bottle out in the sun... And thats me! Dripping on the outside and full of sugar on the inside!
It was about that time I thought, "you know, I'm kind of getting addicted to sweating and the energy burst I get from doing this thing called exercising." So I packed up and went straight to the gym. Lifted some weights, realized I am super weak and need to do that way more often. I used a cardio machine and made more body condensation, took a stationary bike ride to Facebook land, Sat up and laid down on a big bouncy ball 60 times stretched out from the night and called it quits!
Got home got some old clothes out. Size 16 jeans perfect fit. A tank and short night set... fits me waaay better than it did when I bought it! So that was a pretty rocking. It was also a nice confidence boost!
Here it is now 1 am and I'm still wide awake. That's what happens when I go to the gym at night... but I suppose that is one small price to pay for the body of a goddess. It's a good thing the price is so low... my credit sucks!
Well sweet dreams, and don't eat the cotton candy... they're sheep.
xoxox,
Shan
Wednesday, August 24, 2011
Purging the house... including the fat coat... still...
Well hello followers. It has been awhile huh? Doctors have a tendency to look down on you if you're pregnant and actively trying loosing weight. But, here I am, one kid more and realizing how insane it is have "3 under 3" and a house full of stuff. I've been purging a lot of duplicate things or things we will never use. Less for the twoddlers to get into and destroy.
But you didn't come here for that! You came here to listen to me talk about my fat coat. Which by the way I'm trying to purge but having a hell of a time doing. I call it my fat coat because of the way it makes me feel. You know those big long tundra down filled coats? Well that's what my fat makes me feel like, there fore the term fat coat was born.
Currently I am going to the gym, whenever I can squeeze it into my crazy schedule, I am also shaking my goods twice a week at my ZUMBA class! I am working nights/weekends part time, and sharing the Scentsy experience, so with caring for the zoo here at home, that doesn't leave too much time for exercise! I definitely couldn't do what I'm doing without my darling Hubs. Point being, the weight loss, despite eating well, is going very, very, VERY slow...
Oddly, I feel more accomplished and sexier... I'm thinking that this pregnancy had some great effects on my horomones... so here's hoping that it also effects my PCOS in a positive way... like making my PCOS symptoms completely disappear!
It's good to be back. Keep an eye out for updates on me donated my fat coat to someone who really needs it!
xoxox,
Shan
But you didn't come here for that! You came here to listen to me talk about my fat coat. Which by the way I'm trying to purge but having a hell of a time doing. I call it my fat coat because of the way it makes me feel. You know those big long tundra down filled coats? Well that's what my fat makes me feel like, there fore the term fat coat was born.
Currently I am going to the gym, whenever I can squeeze it into my crazy schedule, I am also shaking my goods twice a week at my ZUMBA class! I am working nights/weekends part time, and sharing the Scentsy experience, so with caring for the zoo here at home, that doesn't leave too much time for exercise! I definitely couldn't do what I'm doing without my darling Hubs. Point being, the weight loss, despite eating well, is going very, very, VERY slow...
Oddly, I feel more accomplished and sexier... I'm thinking that this pregnancy had some great effects on my horomones... so here's hoping that it also effects my PCOS in a positive way... like making my PCOS symptoms completely disappear!
It's good to be back. Keep an eye out for updates on me donated my fat coat to someone who really needs it!
xoxox,
Shan
Wednesday, November 3, 2010
The prego diet!
Yup. That's right, I'm pregnant with baby number 3. And let's just say so far it has not been a picnic! Loving two toddlers and a puppy is surely enough for any expectant, but then add a sad and costly mistakeby a nurse. What a week. I was told to quit my meds immediately since meds aren't safe during my first trimester. It seems that she didn't know the repercussions of stopping a SSRI cold turkey. In my situation this could of caused Sarotonin Syndrome! Google that one!
So needeless to say, I haven't been myself and haven't been able to make it to the gym. This really bums me out. I know it's Wednesday already, but I'm really hoping to get back there THIS WEEK! I just have no motivation... BOO! Here's to getting my butt back in gear.
xoxox,
Shan
So needeless to say, I haven't been myself and haven't been able to make it to the gym. This really bums me out. I know it's Wednesday already, but I'm really hoping to get back there THIS WEEK! I just have no motivation... BOO! Here's to getting my butt back in gear.
xoxox,
Shan
Thursday, October 21, 2010
To the gym whale woman!
So thanks to Planet Fitness' $10 mo. $10 down I have now have a gym membership. Last night I spoke to the trainer Ryan. I'm stoked and I can't wait. I'm thinking about going again tonight so I can get a legitimate workout in. But it's my tv night.... sigh.... decisions decisions. Oddly enough I almost don't care that it's tv night....
YES I am gonna go tonight. TV be damned! I feel soooo much better after visiting the gym! OK well off to color with my girl. :-)
xoxox,
Shan
YES I am gonna go tonight. TV be damned! I feel soooo much better after visiting the gym! OK well off to color with my girl. :-)
xoxox,
Shan
Friday, September 24, 2010
Monday, September 20, 2010
Up is down and Down is up... CRAAAAAAP!
I think I'm getting my memo's completely screwed up here. I started at 218 and I am heading in the direction of 137. However I think I got on the fast track going through the scenic route.... I am now 221!!!!! What the deuce???
That's all I have to say right now..... completely discouraged.
That's all I have to say right now..... completely discouraged.
Thursday, September 9, 2010
Eh? What'd ya say? I can't hear ya, my hip hurts.
UGHA!!!!! Uber frustration! So I've been on the Metformin for about a month and low and behold had horrible, horrible side effects. I had horrible pain! I constantly felt as though I was getting or having my period for 2 months straight, and I know you women know what I mean. Sometime it felt as though I was actually having contractions it was so bad. A couple of times I thought I was going to have to go to the doctors because I was either having an etopic pregnancy or a miscarriage. :-( My hip hurt so bad I thought it was my sciatica hurting me. It got to the point that while on vacation I could hardly move.
So since I was mad and frustrated about gaining more weight and thinking that it was my weight causing me so much pain I decided to just say forget the drugs. I would just starve myself and exercise. ... so three days after stoping the Metformin all my pain and suffering went away. Again I say UGHA!!!!
So I'm mad, I'm frustrated and damn it I'm gonna loose this fat. I can't take it anymore. I seriously am self conscious though. I feel like people are going to look at me and say things like "Ew that fat girl's fat is jiggling." Silly I know. So instead I have decided to jog with the Wii Fit and work out on Time Warner Cables Channel 1067, there work out routines on demand. I will loose this weight. Even if it kills me doing it!
Tuesday, August 24, 2010
What a loser!
OK some of you maybe thinking, "Woohoo congrats Shan!", well hold the applause. I'm not a weight loss loser. I'm the L to the forehead kind of loser. I've gained weight and a considerable amount too. :-( Needless to say I'm more frustrated than before. Angry at myself. Why I'm not sure. Is it because I feel like this is something I can't control. Not sure. I am starting to feel at this point that only GOD can help this sorry loser.
Now before I describe what has been going on with me, NO I am NOT pregnant. I have taken two tests both negative, which is what I think makes this whole thing worse. Here are some of the things I have been experiencing.
Now before I describe what has been going on with me, NO I am NOT pregnant. I have taken two tests both negative, which is what I think makes this whole thing worse. Here are some of the things I have been experiencing.
- I'm three weeks late
- I'm starving all the time
- I'm craving carbs
- I'm exhausted
- Having terrible cramps
- Bloating beyond belief!
So yeah add frustration in there and I am just a barrel of laughs right now. I went from my starting weight of 218 to 212.2 which was great! I am doing the same things that I did then, now. Nothing has changed and yet as of this morning I weigh 219.8! I seriously wanted to take the scale and chuck it out the window! I mean come on, ugha.
At this point I am considering starting a Wii Fit Club. So at the very least if I don't loose weight at least my friends can. Oi Vey!
Friday, July 16, 2010
Metfomin and Fat girl; Bondage at it's best.
No this isn't a post about sex so get your head out of the gutter people! It's about how Metformin and I have been getting along.
A part of me is extremely apprehensive to tell my family that I am on Metformin. 1.) because they will say "OH you have diabetes, that's why they gave you on a diabetes medication." 2.) because they will follow up with, "See all that excesses eating that has made you over weight gave you diabetes." This kind of irritates me a bit because blood sugar issues are genetic so it's really their fault not mine. And I'm over weight because of my insulin NOT getting the sugar to the blood properly, but instead storing the sugar as fat and then producing extra insulin to get the sugar where it has to go. Vicious cycle. (one of the many issues that I deal with due to insulin resistance.) The only way to stop it is, well, by not eating, but that's not good either. Metformin aids the insulin into the blood stream. And no I do not have diabetes. Trying to explain this to anyone in my family, who doesn't have a medical background, is like talking to a brick wall and hurts about as much as running into one. So I guess for now I will keep this my dirty little secret.
So the weight loss saga starts again. I somehow crept back up to my starting weight of 218lbs. :-( Completely disheartening. But within this last week I have lost a total of 5.8 lb without changing much of anything. Go me! I can only hope that this trend continues. :-) If so, I will be down to 200lbs by my anniversary. And that's the lowest I will have weighted in years.
The only real major differences that I have noticed since starting the Metformin is my loss in appetite. Before my insulin was storing the sugars from food right away instead of using it, so my body was always tell me "YOU'RE HUNGRY! EAT MORE! NOW!" I always felt as though I was starving, and seriously you can look at me and know that I am not. Some of the side effects are not pretty, like having a very personal relationship with the porcelain throne, thankfully this has not plagued me.
Oh and my love for sugar, mostly ice cream... well it's so sad to say that I think it's gone. I had regular ice cream last night instead of my typical frozen yogurt, and the amount of sugar in it seemed like there was enough to feed a small colony of humming birds. I never noticed how much sugar was in ice cream before. It actually made me sick to my stomach! I definitely don't crave sugar the way I use to. Coincidence? I think not. And there are certain food that just don't appeal to me anymore, again I don't think that this is coincidence.
Well nap time is over for my little mobile monsters as I hear their cries coming from the back end of the house, where their bedrooms are located. So I must sign off for now. But it really seems as though Sir Metformin has strapped Fat girl down and has really started whipping her into shape. :-D
A part of me is extremely apprehensive to tell my family that I am on Metformin. 1.) because they will say "OH you have diabetes, that's why they gave you on a diabetes medication." 2.) because they will follow up with, "See all that excesses eating that has made you over weight gave you diabetes." This kind of irritates me a bit because blood sugar issues are genetic so it's really their fault not mine. And I'm over weight because of my insulin NOT getting the sugar to the blood properly, but instead storing the sugar as fat and then producing extra insulin to get the sugar where it has to go. Vicious cycle. (one of the many issues that I deal with due to insulin resistance.) The only way to stop it is, well, by not eating, but that's not good either. Metformin aids the insulin into the blood stream. And no I do not have diabetes. Trying to explain this to anyone in my family, who doesn't have a medical background, is like talking to a brick wall and hurts about as much as running into one. So I guess for now I will keep this my dirty little secret.
So the weight loss saga starts again. I somehow crept back up to my starting weight of 218lbs. :-( Completely disheartening. But within this last week I have lost a total of 5.8 lb without changing much of anything. Go me! I can only hope that this trend continues. :-) If so, I will be down to 200lbs by my anniversary. And that's the lowest I will have weighted in years.
The only real major differences that I have noticed since starting the Metformin is my loss in appetite. Before my insulin was storing the sugars from food right away instead of using it, so my body was always tell me "YOU'RE HUNGRY! EAT MORE! NOW!" I always felt as though I was starving, and seriously you can look at me and know that I am not. Some of the side effects are not pretty, like having a very personal relationship with the porcelain throne, thankfully this has not plagued me.
Oh and my love for sugar, mostly ice cream... well it's so sad to say that I think it's gone. I had regular ice cream last night instead of my typical frozen yogurt, and the amount of sugar in it seemed like there was enough to feed a small colony of humming birds. I never noticed how much sugar was in ice cream before. It actually made me sick to my stomach! I definitely don't crave sugar the way I use to. Coincidence? I think not. And there are certain food that just don't appeal to me anymore, again I don't think that this is coincidence.
Well nap time is over for my little mobile monsters as I hear their cries coming from the back end of the house, where their bedrooms are located. So I must sign off for now. But it really seems as though Sir Metformin has strapped Fat girl down and has really started whipping her into shape. :-D
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
Sunday, July 11, 2010
Aunt Flo! How are you!? Where have you been?
Lucky me. One of my symptoms of PCOS is the lack of a menstrual cycle. Now I know what some of you may be thinking, "You're one lucky byotch!" Sure, sure I totally understand this! However, it also isn't the healthiest thing in the world to have no menstrual cycle, the way I do. Yes I have had them in the recent past, but only birth control pill induced. My last natural menses was the day of our wedding, yeah lucky me, and of course I only had it for that one day. I am now 20 days shy of making it 6 complete years with out a natural menses.
But today is also an amazing day. Today IS the first day since my wedding day that I HAVE HAD a natural menses! This makes me want to do flips and summersaults, well it would if I wasn't totally cramping right now. Being on metformin for one week with no change in weight except up and I was getting concerned that this wasn't the way for me. I am now beginning to think that it is only the beginning of something amazing to come.
Wish me luck! Today my faith has been renewed and I feel like that my goal is actually possible now. And here we go!
xoxox,
Shan
But today is also an amazing day. Today IS the first day since my wedding day that I HAVE HAD a natural menses! This makes me want to do flips and summersaults, well it would if I wasn't totally cramping right now. Being on metformin for one week with no change in weight except up and I was getting concerned that this wasn't the way for me. I am now beginning to think that it is only the beginning of something amazing to come.
Wish me luck! Today my faith has been renewed and I feel like that my goal is actually possible now. And here we go!
xoxox,
Shan
Tuesday, June 29, 2010
Showing A Little Leg!!!
I have been absent from my blog writing how sad! I'm sorry to those of you who have enjoyed reading my rants... Sadly so much has been going on in my little world that I have gotten side tracked. Like a 1st birthday of my little monsters. (I am now officially doomed. They say if you don't loose the fat by the baby's first birthday that you will never be able to take it off. Who are they exactly? Because in case they didn't notice I had the fat long before I had the baby(s).)
So summer is officially here and a part of me really hates it. When you are this fluffy, in this weather, I swear sometimes all you have to do is look cross-eyed and you can break into a sweat. I have had this urge, so far this summer, to go swimming like none other. It's weird because I really haven't wanted to go swimming in at least 8 years. Not only that, but I haven't worn shorts in about 6 years. That's when I started gaining all the weight thanks to my Ticking P.C.O.S. Time Bomb.
But it is something about this summer, every time I see a pool I just want to jump in it. And I broke down and finally bought a pair of shorts. Granted they are the long kind with cargo pockets, but I really like those kind of shorts anyway, and they happen to look great on me. They come down just past my knee to hide the fact that I have sausage legs. You know the type where you can't even tell there is a joint amongst all the fluff? I think my legs and my once perfectly flat stomach are the two places that kill me the most when I look at them. GRRRR.
So I thought that I would finally go running a few days ago to realize that the stroller was in the back of David's car, and I won't mention why it is that I haven't tried to go running since. *couLAZINESSgh* Then I thought well I could defiantly go tomorrow morning, but I realized that I can't. I don't have a sports bra... seriously, forget giving myself black eyes I would knock my head clear off!!! So that is once again postponed. :-(
Today I had to go to the General Practitioner for a UTI. Ick. I also told her that I stopped taking my birth control because how it affects not just my energy level my libido too. While I was there I talked with her about my PCOS and using Metformin as a way of aiding my body in not only keep PCOS under wraps but also being able to jump start my weight loss since I have evidently hit my permanent plateau. I am exercising and eating a proper diet but these things alone are not getting me over my hump. So with that said, after my yummy dinner, I will be walking my fluffy butt to the pharmacy to pick up my new prescriptions.
xoxox,
Shan
So summer is officially here and a part of me really hates it. When you are this fluffy, in this weather, I swear sometimes all you have to do is look cross-eyed and you can break into a sweat. I have had this urge, so far this summer, to go swimming like none other. It's weird because I really haven't wanted to go swimming in at least 8 years. Not only that, but I haven't worn shorts in about 6 years. That's when I started gaining all the weight thanks to my Ticking P.C.O.S. Time Bomb.
But it is something about this summer, every time I see a pool I just want to jump in it. And I broke down and finally bought a pair of shorts. Granted they are the long kind with cargo pockets, but I really like those kind of shorts anyway, and they happen to look great on me. They come down just past my knee to hide the fact that I have sausage legs. You know the type where you can't even tell there is a joint amongst all the fluff? I think my legs and my once perfectly flat stomach are the two places that kill me the most when I look at them. GRRRR.
So I thought that I would finally go running a few days ago to realize that the stroller was in the back of David's car, and I won't mention why it is that I haven't tried to go running since. *couLAZINESSgh* Then I thought well I could defiantly go tomorrow morning, but I realized that I can't. I don't have a sports bra... seriously, forget giving myself black eyes I would knock my head clear off!!! So that is once again postponed. :-(
Today I had to go to the General Practitioner for a UTI. Ick. I also told her that I stopped taking my birth control because how it affects not just my energy level my libido too. While I was there I talked with her about my PCOS and using Metformin as a way of aiding my body in not only keep PCOS under wraps but also being able to jump start my weight loss since I have evidently hit my permanent plateau. I am exercising and eating a proper diet but these things alone are not getting me over my hump. So with that said, after my yummy dinner, I will be walking my fluffy butt to the pharmacy to pick up my new prescriptions.
xoxox,
Shan
Saturday, March 13, 2010
The Red Squeaky Push-up Bra
As I was getting ready to go to my friend's four year old daughter's birthday party I knew today was in fact going to be a sexy day. Now let's be realistic, big girls who were once perfectly proportioned Barbie Dolls do not have sexy days often. Most of the time they feel like their jiggly butt is folding over and eating all the elastic of their plain granny-panties. And that someone, somewhere, has got to be pointing and laughing at them, even if it's just the voices in their head. But YES! Today was a sexy day. Maybe it was because I put on my bright red squeaky push-up bra. If I move just right the fabric rubs on the underwire and it squeaks. I'm surprised that someone hasn't asked if I have a mouse in my bra. The last time I owned a red push-up bra was in junior high when my boobs started as a cup size B and ended up as a cup size C by the end of the day. All I have to say is that I'm glad they didn't continue to grow at that rate because toping out at 40DD already poses problems for me, mostly acting as a second table surface that is closer to my mouth. I am 99.9% sure that I can somehow blame my inability to loose weight on them. But I remember the days I wore this red bra, and hung out with all my guy friends, and felt as though I not only had confidence but I somehow control their every move. Even today I felt as though I am the alpha in my marriage
It's as though the red bra has more power than all super heros combined. Not a single black bra can come close to compete with the red bra. I don't really get it. But I do know that with the boost I get from my red bra is not only a boost to my chest, but also to my confidence. And even though my husband still fines my granny-panty eating butt attractive, today I actually feel like it. Who knows, maybe tonight he will actually get lucky. ;-)
xoxox,
Shan
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